Everyone thinks im so stupid, they think i cant understand stuff or i cant see certain stuff, i hate it.
I may not be observant too all things but i am about the people i care about.
How do you know if your good enough for someone or not?
How do you make yourself stop thinking about comparing yourself to other people, better people. I drown in my self confidence, but i do work hard to try and have a different mind set, but i cant help the way i feel and how it all just comes to me at once.
If im upset i really have none to blame but myself, i put myself in these situations or ill open up about how i feel which will just cause fights.
I dont know what to do anymore, im losing myself, im losing control of my feelings.
I JUST NEED TO SHUT UP AND SMILE!
TRY, I have to try harder at pretending to be happy and fake a smile no matter how hard it is or how much i feel like crying, all i can do it try.
Tumblr, i can open up to on my blog cause the chances of anyone seeing this or even caring is like one in a million and i cant cause a fight or be judged, its just like talking to myself but not keeping it in as much.
Now all i wanna do is cry myself to sleep.
Goodnight tumblrs xoxo
